Love

We all seem to have our own idea of "Love" set in our minds don't we? I know I do, I guess I could call myself a hopeless romantic. I really think that a lot of us women go see romantic movies and like to tell ourselves that what we see in those movies is real, sorry people, but "The Notebook" is NOT very realistic, I would know for myself. I have been with a couple guys where I would hope that our relationship would turn out just like it would in a movie, there was one guy where i thought i was his world, he was mine, and i thought he would do anything for me, we would fall in love and everything would be perfect, i thought i had waited so long and went through so many different guys to get to this amazing, funny, caring, attractive guy. that he was "the one". apparently in his eyes he didn't view me in the same way. and i had my heart broken completely, i feel like it was the ultimate let down, no feeling could ever compare to this. But at the same time, i guess i am pretty thankful for everything i've been going through and what i've already gone through because i'm learning a lot and i'm gaining a lot of wisdom through it all and hopefully i can share my testimony with girls that will go through what i'm going through right now. I have complete faith that my heavenly father is going to send me someone so amazing, someone who is going to blow my mind completely and make me wonder to myself, "Why did he choose me?" I just know that God could not have made me to long for love and marriage so badly to not let me have those things one day, but I know right now I just need to focus on myself, figure out who i am and love myself before i can have both of those things, and it's going to be so hard to find myself because unfortunately, our world is full of so much hurt and there are so many distractions that can get in the way of that journey, we just need to learn how to cope with it, and the best way to do that is to take a journey deep into Gods word and let him guide you completely, it's not easy at all, because i'm trying to do this with myself right now, but i feel like i'm trying too hard to find myself and to love myself when i think i just need to give myself some time. i know i can do it and ill be there eventually. i just wanted to thank everyone who has been keeping up with me and keeping me in your prayers, they mean the world to me and its helping me more than you know, i can really feel God moving through me and speaking to me through everything going on in my hectic life right now. love you guys